shoulds

you should have met me with joy and not left me waiting alone
you should have hugged me liked you'd missed me
or even just looked me in the eye
you should've asked how my trip was, but you were excited about you
that's ok
to take joy in yourself is important
but you really should've told me there'd been other people here
not let me wheedle it out of you in the bedroom
and then you should have used the emotions rather than completely ignore them and gone on to change the subject
you should have at least pretended you wanted to spend time with me
or that i'd been missed
but "should"
is a li'l bit of an evil word
and totally subjective...they're just things that i want
and wish for
and can't change
and shouldn't try to.