and sometimes, people don't suck.

today was a good day.
it is a good thing to surround yourself with people you love.
it is a good thing to:
reach out;
and ask what you'd like to be asked;
and laugh;
and listen;
and remind them that you love them.
today was a good day.

sigh

oh, i miss girls!

nada?

coming home felt...nothing.
not happy, not sad. not angry. not ecstatic.
just...nothing.
like going back into suspended animation again.
weird.

trap'd

i used to work in radio
now i can barely stutter a sentence

i used to play for a living
now i can hardly scratch out a scale

i used to sing all the time -- god! remember? we used to sing at parties, for events, people would ask us to sing, to arrange things. we sang a parody in front of a thousand people.
and laughed.
now i can't even raise my voice at home. alone. in my own house. anywhere. i just choke.

why????

so i sang myself to sleep. poor, rusty chords :)